its been a while since i have seriously put my thoughts into words.

im scared. ive fallen for him. i was hurt so bad before. i dont think he is capable of hurting me, but im terrified to give him my all. i know me and him can be great. we can be absolutely magnificent and show the world there is magic between us.

im scared. i dont want to hurt him.

im stressed. school is just something that i consider a waste of time. i dont pay attention in class, if and when i do attend class. its an inconvenience to go to class. i want to do something with my life, something i enjoy that makes me happy. something where i can make money. but right now i dont know what it is.

i miss my brother. he lives 45 mins away. but i never get to see him. i see him every couple months. which is ridiculous.

my feet are cold. my hair is wet. my clothes are soaked.